Monday, February 05, 2007
I had a nice, warm dinner with the folks. A happy happy family dinner with
balasushi to fill us up. <3 jap food. And what about you?
As usual, i pondered on my bed this morning if i should get it going to have another fun time in school, or just make a deep cut and cough profusely and cry to our grannies.
Nevertheless, i skipped another grace of an mc, and went to school just to prove everyone that i'm godly afterall.
Anyway, i just got my maths test and i'm seriously bloddy stressed up. It's nothing to be complacent about. Everyone's moving forward to achieve all their ones that they should deserve, whereas i'm still stuck here with all of my pathetic twos. It's so annoying. Oh and this big fat cheena guy in my class is so competitive. Everyone is. The competition is getting tensed and i'm not too sure if i could hold on. I'm breaking down now, to have the thought and to see the splurge of our analysis. It just sucks. Vicki's alrdy catching up and clarissa won me for maths.
YOU SHOULD OBVIOUSLY KNOW THAT I'VE DONE BADLY. AND AN A2 IS DEFINITELY TAKING ME NOWHERE.
GOD, I DEMAND FOR A1SSSSSSSS!!!!!! YOU HEAR ME??!!! ONES ONES ONES ONES ONES ONES ONES!!!Seriously, i think i failed this time. I don't know why. I just do. This time, i won't come crying after ms ang, who eventually would give me a sheer smile in a form of sympathy. And what do i get from my form teacher? A fair warning saying that i could never get into the best class mainly because i'm not good enough.
I don't know if it's just a sarcastic comment or a sarcastic skill in order the straighten students up, i just feel that inserurity of me passing up my grades. I would just die for sec3/1. I seriously need to buck up. But today's maths test was such a failure. I felt so left behind. Besides, i had missed two days of lessons which made me damn bloody slow, i don't even think i could get my ones. Everyone used to praise me how hardworking i am. Honestly, i'm not. Everyone needs to study. Mainly because no one here in new town is clever. No one is. People try to console me by saying 'yes, you can do it. you will make it. e3/1 is without a doubt. you will for sure have positions there. Nothing is impossible.' Sometimes, i wish i could just shout out loud and demand everyone to just go and shut their mouth. Please, that's almost eveything that i've heard of other people. It's just sick. It's easy to say but not easy to do.
I'm such a failure in maths.Is it because i'm not into propotions and figures? Or am i better at algebra and soon i'll prove to everyone that i'm good?
Or am i just NOT good enough?Lord, prove me wrong through today's science test, i pray, amen
6:25 pm
