Saturday, March 31, 2007
Flying over a nation to another isn't fun at all. Yuck. Got scolded by mom, ama and i hate myself for being such a bitch. I'm fucken pissed right now, and worse of all it's not my periods that's giving me boo-hoos. Argh, let me just be
ms blame-it-on-the-world for this time.
First off, grand opening sucked, i had to attend every aunties and uncles' needs and yuck, i hate that. And besides, it left me no time to do or even revise my work, it's disastreous cos there will be 5 test next week. If you hadn't known, i've been mentioning that many times so i take it as you now how important studying is to me. If i don't ace those test then i make sure i jump down the building, even if it will take me to hell.
Invitation sucked. I haven't been a good designer. True, i'm talented and artistic in sketching or shading but please, i'm not always good at art. So if it's the handwriting, layout or design that you're talking about, you better don't throw me on that job cos i'm the kind of person who doesn't do things in effort just as long as it doesn't interst me. Vicki's so good in writing, clarissa's talented in drawing, kat's excellent in layouts, but i'm not. So no doubt that this bloody job ticks me off easily cos i seriously have a short shelf-life of patience and the fact that it doesn't interest me at all. And i can't turn down the request and i know i'm mean to express out all my anger but blogging seems to be the best way to vent out my anger RIGHT NOW, so bear with me. If not, go ahead and click that [x] at the top right hand corner of this screen, if you do not wish to see how bitchy and mean and horrible i can get.
Just because i wasn't off to camp, doesn't mean that it made me ''so free'' cos hell, what i've been doing these past few days was pretty much struggling between family and work. Flying over to indonesia and back here again in singapore takes two trips, that means two days are wasted cos i wasn't doing anything on the plane. And i'm only off for 4 days, and if your maths are up to kindergarden standard then you should know that 4days minus 2 wasting days equals to 2 busy days. Duh! Trying to juggle everything in two days is not easy.
Okay fine, i've been delaying for a week but hey, last week was nothing but test test test, homework homework homework, tuition tuition tuition, that's it, i've had enough.
It's only invitation cards, but its a huge deal to my grades. Streaming or party, i'd rather give up partying than sweeping the floor for my future job cos i couldn't ace streaming.
Whatever, small things irritate me sometimes. I'm not angry with anybody, i'm just angry at myself for being such a bitch. Funny that a person can piss herself, but yeah, i'm that kinda person. I always put myself at fault and i'm betraying myself. So i guess that's what made me struggle too much.
'I'm looking out for Your sanctuary NOW'
11:40 pm
