Monday, April 02, 2007
I'm neither happy, nor sad.
I was never close to in between.
I'm just feeling blank,
About what i did and what i intended to.
Everything's a complete mess.
And now i've been answering the stupid hows and whys,
Which is totally irrelevant.
I'm not in a mood to do anything right now.
I don't understand how lousier i get as the days pass.
Fun and excitment is out of the list,
I don't know why i preferred sleeping through day and night,
Just to missed these things out.
I feel bad and i'm very particular about everything.
I'm always accusing myself at fault.
My apologies,
To everyone who are sick and tired of me,
And to anyone who i've pissed or hurt or offended.
If i can contolControlling my smile, laughter and excitement, is the culmination of me leaving the tough game behind.
Actually, i never really controlled it,
I actually dealt with it and got over it.
That's the only part where i'm proud and happy about.
11:49 am
